This is part of What Interest Me This Week series.

I'm actively thinking about what I think they call psychological suicide, specifically the resource-hording part of my characters.

This will more make sense if you've been exposed to enneagram; where my profile (Type 5) is accurately describing my tendency to be scarcity-minded. To compensate for that, self-help people like saying "be abundance minded" but never say how. That's as helpful as "be taller".

I learned a new word too: avarice. It's like greed but fear-driven.

In the process of finding ways to overcome it, I was reminded that the enneagram came bundled with the solution: be more like Type 8. That led me to look deeply into characteristics of Type 8.

You see Type 8 is anger driven, confrontational and righteous. In stress he would turn into Type 5, withdrawn, introspective and minimalist. And then this hits me hard:

What if I began as a Type 8 long time ago, hit into snags big time then regressed permanently into Type 5? The implication would be intriguing. At the very least it means there has been decades-long slow failure in character development. Lived long enough to be become a villain, how bout that.

I'll be at least looking into what it means to 'grow' into a Type 8, which suggest more anger-driven approach. That sounds like a regression to me but the map of enneagram says otherwise, which makes it all the more interesting.